Surely... You must think me insane?

The very first memory I possess was something I can scarcely explain.  I have contemplated and meditated over this memory ad nauseum.  Trying so very hard to ponder the meaning of it, or make some sense of the imagery, sounds, and textures.  It always frightens me a little, because my recollection of the event was that of a very scary time.  I must first admit to the reader that even though I may appear as a "normal" human being, and in many ways I am, however this was not always the case.  Although I have never been the awesome fantasies that many popularized Hollywood movies and the various extra terrestrial "sightings" or "abductees" might boast of, however the reality is much more interesting (of course I have a biased opinion).  It began on a planet which is relatively close by galactic standards.  The closest spelling that approximates the pronunciation of the word we called our world would be Kylanxia (Q-eye-Lon-ack-ee-ahh), which orbits a star quite close to Sol, called Sirius on this world.  However that is not our name for the star.  Also to say that our planet orbited Sirius is a misstatement as Sirius is a Tri-nary system.  Meaning there are 3 stars which orbit each other quite closely.  Right now the earth scientist are only aware of two, Sirius A and B.  Sirius A is a blue giant and B is a much smaller red dwarf that orbits quite rapidly its larger companion.  Sirius C (as it would be named) is unpronounceable in human tongue, however it is a much smaller proto-star which is closer to a brown dwarf than to a solar entity.  My Kylanxia orbits this hot ball of gas at a very slow rate.  This is an especially important feature as it is unknown to most humans, the revolution speed of a planets orbit colors the psychology of the aging processes of the conscious specie living there.  Every year on our planet is 13 years here.  We age accordingly.  Childhood lasted for me a lifetime of human years.  The biggest question I was asked when confronted for the first time here on earth was "does the entire race appear as I do?"  The answer is yes.  We appear human.  Anatomy is quite similar, however the genetic differences are abundant.  It appears in every way conceivable that the Kylanxian structure is quite superior.  However we do not "live forever".  I eventually died here on earth many millenia ago during a vastly different age of this planet.  The biggest regret I have is deciding to remain here to be reincarnated as a hybrid being all those many years ago.  My longevity lost to many cycles of adaptation to this worlds solar period.  However being that my home race was truly biological and naturally evolved to that point, our understanding of what this plane of existence actually entails, my memory of each life stays in tact...(for the most part).  Memory is still memory, and things are forgotten if they are not utilized.  I have lost many interesting utilities I once possessed and I have gained others.  I may never know exactly what I am doing here and why the hell I came in the first place.  I am not alone though. I am positive that it is not merely for my benefit or gain and not for fun and pleasure either.  I believe it has to do with the fact that less than 1% of this entire world's population understands the truth about mans true origins, the ethereal realm, and of matters beyond the base.  This world is being taken hostage by a select few who have claimed it at the expense of the masses.  Soon there will be a great change and a possibility of other races of humanoid beings will discover earth and make this eras "first contact".  It will be in this "New World Order" (I know many are afraid of this term but I assure you it is not to be feared) that finally the whole of humanity will be lifted up into an entirely different paradigm of ascendant possibility, and prosperous times.