my ship, on earth, as it is in heaven.

When they asked me if I thought they were ready, and I was sure they weren't...  I still said yes.  I lied.  I was lonely..  I was tired of being so alone, so polarized between feared from misunderstanding and loved for what I represent.  What I say and the things I do are not things I have learned or seen someone else doing successfully..  I feel them deep within and listen not to my instincts but to my hearts voice and my mind's eye.  I know right from wrong no matter where I find myself...  Right and wrong are not the appropriate words in the sense in which I have made their use...  However the conscious is a dualistic entity and often sees the poles of a thing and not the thing itself.  For example; most people look at love and hate, and they say that it is better to love than hate.  Whether this be true is a matter of subjectivity and the ones opinion who is experiencing the emotion at the time.  In the case of the murderer or rapist and the victim or their family, one might say it is in the interest of the affected to dislike the offender..  As to love the person who has done such a wrong to you or another who is close to you is non-sensical in the least and detrimental to them in the most, as without the feeling that what you have done is harmful, then you can not know that you may find another who will surely take your life for the action.  Again, whether this is the correct course of thought is completely subjective.  The entire point of all this is simply to acknowledge the "feeling".  To feel emotion....to comprehend that you are indeed experiencing emotion is to know the voice of the supreme diety.  As the One may speak in many ways and rarely does it speak through words.  As words are quite elusive and explain very little with very much effort.  Lots of work for nothing in return, except an almost negligible understanding of a concept.  The miracle of sound is only truly appreciated in the form of what you call music.  Number in time.  The ability to create coherent sound in ratios which express basic concepts of mathematics to measure wavelengths of pure energy..    The vibration of particles in the space of which you occupy create those sounds.  They demonstrate relatively simple concepts within the reality of the universe we experience...  Take the rotation of Venus to Earth for example..  These measurements decipher a beautiful reality. Venus rotates very slowly on her axis in the the opposite direction of most of the planets rotations. Her rotation period is precisely two thirds of one earth year, and this is known in the world of musical theory as the fifth..  There are many little "coincidences" to speak of when calculating the orbits and deciphering the ratios.  You begin to see patterns emerging that resemble musical and geometric principles almost too perfectly.  The likelihood of this happening by chance is quite slim.  Although I can say that there are theories in the scientific mainstream that have been postulated regarding the concept of infinity, which quite elegantly point out that in an infinite universe, the infanteccismal chance occurrences are everyday happenings.  They happen simply because there's just too much not to.  Although that seems a legitimate explanation for all of this beauty and symmetry surrounding us at every turn, it still doesn't explain consciousness..  We are as far from understanding what we are doing here as the ancients were from constructing the pocket calculator.  However those same ancients pondered consciousness with a ferocity that's only seen today when we look at financially competitive institutions such as the stock market.  It's actually kind of sad.  Humans have forfeited their high and mighty spot on the mount, thinking deeply and conspiring of world events with the "Gods" themselves, for a very lowly, pathetic, and meaningless illusion such as money...  Power...  These truly are constructs which have created by the human mind and forced upon the masses at their disadvantage.  It was on purpose that we no longer aspire to know ALL.  To know INFINITE MIND. To know GOD.